Confession 001

Confession: I didn't grow up poor, i didn't grow up rich but these last 3 years I have definitely learned want I need, what I don't need, how to live without, definition of real friendships,seasonal friendships ,who will support, who will say they will support, who will pray who will say the will pray and how to totally depend on God for everything. This next season, you will see change, those who have been there will BE there and those who disappeared will remain invisible. Me? I'm going to be fine, I have been fine, people's positions have switched and been switched out, I'm grateful to Christ for this time. Let it be known now, I'm coming out stronger, my yes will mean yes and my no will mean no for within these last few years, establishment has made a home on my doorstep, welcome home.

Never dreamed until now....

I was never taught to dream. I always knew dreams to be something that occurred at night in an unconscious state. The "you can be anything you want" dream statements was never spoken in my presence until my father uttered the words in a past tense fashion. The first time I can recall hearing those words was after we realized I might not graduate from high school. Not because I wasn't smart but more because I had no discipline. If I applied myself......
Having a father daughter talk in my high school parking lot and later potentially my early 20's after my second abortion were the only times I heard those words. Then my 3rd time, 1 year ago. Im 32 now.
If they always knew I could be something did it really even matter if they never said it to me? I am getting too familiar with the terminology "after the fact"

Now here I am serving the true and living God, my Abba Father and he is saying to dream, dream so that he can breathe on them and give me the desires of my heart which are somehow tied into his purpose.

I am inspired to write this now because I currently got into an argument with my mother whom I live with at the moment because life has dealt me a hand that only Christ can play. In a nut shell, I'm living my dream, I am starting businesses that God has birthed on our family bloodline but because she may have never been taught how to dream or tap into that dimension of relationship with God, its either one of two things, either I'm speaking a foreign language and she doesn't know how to speak "Dream" or she is Thomas and wont believe it until she sees it. To cut this short, regardless, Im going to run till I finish.


I'll see you at the Finish line.